'Mish Mash' Category
I’ve been caught on video!
OK not really, but this lady pretty much sums up how I am at home. LOLOLOL.
More Q & A about HK
(Again, I'm sorry, non-HK people!)
The day after I posted my last update, I received a reply from the HK admin team. I'm sad to report that it was full of accusations that either don't make sense, are false, or are misplaced (i.e., someone else did something, but the admin team is blaming me for it). I replied to them a month ago and have not heard back. I guess I won't, and this will have to go unresolved.
In the meantime, I have continued to receive questions from people. It hasn't been plaguing my thoughts too terribly much (after all, I've been through an illness, a 2-week period where my husband was in Hawaii, Saipan, and Guam, a week-long visit from my parents, and a severe hard drive crash), so I keep forgetting to blog about it. But I'm actually remembering this morning LOL!
1. Why are you so bitter about this? Why are you even blogging about this?
I'm truly not bitter about it. I'm actually more confused than anything. I still don't know fully the reasons behind it. The reasons I was provided didn't make a whole lot of sense. I am frustrated at the poor communication, especially when I have reached out in every way I know to reach reconciliation.
However, that is not why I'm blogging about this. I am blogging about this so that the truth can be shared with the ladies who are still at HK. What was told to them about the situation was not the truth. I really don't care that the truth wasn't told about me; I care that the truth wasn't told to my sisters in Christ. I feel that they deserve the truth.
At first, I didn't say anything, not because this was a private matter that needed to be kept under wraps, but because I did what Matthew 18 instructs me to do. I went to the person (actually in this case it was a collective "person" - the admin team) privately, in an attempt to reconcile. They did not respond to me until after I chose to go public. Again, I spoke with them privately about it, in hopes that they would repent and be willing to reconcile. So now, after I have given them sufficient time to respond, I am sharing what happened. This is partly so that you can encourage them to participate in reconciliation (if that's even possible anymore), and it is partly to clue the curious in to what happened (as best I can, since again, I don't fully know what happened myself) since what happened occurred in a public arena.
2. Why are you gossiping about and slandering HK?
Slander means that you are saying untrue things about someone else. I am not doing that. What I am sharing is the truth. I am also sharing the truth about what happened to me. Yes, it is a negative thing that happened.
However, the wrong isn't in my telling of that negative thing, it is that the negative thing happened in the first place.I have really debated whether I should have come forth and said anything at all about it, because I knew that this all would be considered gossip by some. I thought about the news. Granted, while some news definitely is gossip ;-), for the most part it is the simple reporting of facts. Some of those facts are negative. Some of those facts might cause us to have an unfavorable opinion of a person. But is it the reporting that is wrong? Or was it the deed that is being reported wrong?
I thought about the Bible. Let's face it, a LOT of what is written in the Bible gives me a negative impression of some people. Was the writer wrong to write about Jezebel, for example? Or was it a simple reporting of facts, and the wrongdoing was by HER, for being such a staunch idol-worshiper (plus more)?
So that is what I have tried to do. I am reporting the facts, as I experienced them myself. I am purposefully trying NOT to use hyperbole. I am purposefully trying NOT to employ emotional language. I am trying NOT to share how I "feel" because I do not want to play the victim and get everyone to feel sorry for "Oh poor Keer." What I AM trying to do is to let the HK ladies know what happened, because I know that several have been wondering. And I know what what they were told publicly was not the truth.
3. In all your communication with the admins, did you hear from any of them personally, or did you always hear from "Admin?"
One admin spoke to me as herself on my Yahoo group. Another admin spoke to me using her name (but on behalf of the admin team) when I requested access to my PM box. But all of the official correspondence was from "Admin" or the "HK Admin Team" or something of that variety. I do not know if all of the admins agreed with what was being sent to me (since it wasn't signed by a list of admins, just "HK Admins" or whatever) or if only a few did. I do not know if they collectively wrote it or if one person wrote it and "signed" it on behalf of the others.
4. Hearth Keepers was someone's home, and you were just a guest. The admins could have shown you the door anytime they wanted.
I will continue with that analogy. Imagine I am on the outside of HK "home," looking in through one of those one-way glass mirror things. (I must watch too much CSI.)I can see and hear what is going on, but the people inside can't see me. The admins could explain to the other guests, "Keer was getting on my nerves," or "I just didn't like her." After all, as a guest, they don't HAVE to welcome me in. They don't have to like me. However, what they are saying is that we were deactivated due to ongoing tensions and recent threads. (Though later they say that it WASN'T because of recent threads.) They ask the other guests to extend grace and forgiveness for any inappropriate e-mails and PMs that they may have received (which implies that Carla, Amanda, and I were SENDING people inappropriate e-mails and PMs). They share how much they are protecting the other guests from all the awful things that we have done. When the other guests say things like, "Wow, I must have missed something because I have no idea what is going on," "Wow, there must have been some really awful stuff going on behind the scenes because I didn't get a hint of it on the board...you've done such a great job of protecting us!!!" etc., the admins do not correct them, despite the fact that the other guests have unknowingly jumped to wrong conclusions.
Meanwhile, I'm on the outside, screaming through the glass, "They are lying to you!!!!!!!!!" But since I can't be seen or heard, I can't do anything about it.
However, now I can, and I just hope that the ladies who read this will be able to see the truth through the lies they've been told. I also am hoping that the admins who read this will hear that small voice inside telling them that yes, what I have written is the truth, despite what they have previously convinced themselves.
Please continue to pray for the truth to be revealed and for reconciliation.
Public announcement
BACK UP YOUR HARD DRIVE ON A REGULAR BASIS.
My hard drive on my laptop died. Clicking noises are NOT GOOD.
I last backed up my homeschool and financial records on April 5. I last backed up pictures, ALL financial stuff, ALL homeschool stuff, etc. on December 1. Sigh.
A computer man is attempting to retrieve my data. We shall see. Please pray!
Praying for the Steven Curtis Chapman family
His youngest daughter was killed yesterday.
There is information regarding memorials, etc. on his website: http://www.stevencurtischapman.com
Q & A on the HK situation
(This is for ladies who visit from HK…if that’s not you, I apologize since I’m sure you’ll be totally lost!)
I’d like to begin by saying that I am grieved that I even have to do this. I had hoped that there would be some form of private reconciliation, and I attempted to encourage that. However, it’s very difficult to come to the proverbial table to discuss things when the other party never shows up.
Since I have given it sufficient time, I feel that I must move forward and shed light on what all really went on, since I have received lots of questions about it. I believe there have been several misconceptions about the situation, and they need to be cleared up.I’m a sap
I don't even know these people. And there was no sound. But I got teary anyway when I read Pioneer Woman's latest post.
I think that officially makes me pathetic.
Update of sorts on the situation
I received a response from the HK admins, and I have replied to it. I am still hoping to resolve this matter privately. Please keep praying for a biblical resolution.
To those interested
I am anxiously awaiting getting to discuss matters with the HK admins. So far none have joined my yahoo group.
Possibly some of you could encourage them????I just would like to know what is going on. I'm clueless.
More HK news for those interested
More has transpired, from what I have heard. I still have yet to know what is fully going on. So Carla and I have started a private Yahoo group, to try to discuss this in a biblical manner with the admins. We have invited the admins to join us there.
ETA: Pass the word and keep checking for more information.
An apology to my HK sisters
The Lord has convicted me of my use of my private message box. While most of my private messages were about goofy things like school and such, some of them in the past were inappropriate about other members if I was frustrated about something. I HATE that I am not able to e-mail you personally and apologize and ask forgiveness. However, my memory is shot (see my "answers" post below LOL), and I truly do not remember what all I said about whom.
Nor do I have e-mail addresses handy.I am not able to access my account, however, so I cannot go in and see what all I've said. So this post is my best attempt at apologizing.
Please forgive me. I was wrong and should have guarded my thoughts and "tongue" (fingers) better.
ETA: Please see this post as well: http://razorbackmama.homeschooljournal.net/2008/04/14/to-my-hk-sisters/
To my HK Sisters
If you would like to e-mail me, please e-mail me at keer1019 AT gmail DOT com. Please do NOT use the e-mail address that is listed in my profile on the board. It has been changed, and it will NOT reach me. If you know anyone else who needs this information, please pass it along.
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